Hope.

To be honest, I miss going to school. No, no, not for the educational reasons, I'm speaking of friends here. I haven't been able to adjust to me being an alumnus of that school yet, it just happened way too fast. I must say I have spent ten months with wonderful classmates, and it's just so lovely to think of. Of course, most of us being sixteen, we are expected to be a little more mature than we used to be. Even I can see the changes, and it's making me feel nostalgic... already. I know, to people out there who don't live in my shoes, you see things differently. I probably sound nothing more than pathetic to you right now, or you fully agree. High school is over, and most of the fun is over too. I will get over this, probably, but it has been too soon. Ten months... just ten months of senior year. Oh well, then I will probably reminisce about this... until I die or something. :))

Malunggay Festival (July 29, 2011)

Props Making for "IHMA Nite" (August 7, 2011)

Retreat (August 10-11, 2011)

IHMA Nite (August 12, 2011)

Tree Planting (September 8, 2011)

Swimming at Ruvi Cave (September 23, 2011)

Family Day (December 11, 2011)

Christmas Party (December 21, 2011)

Junior-Senior Promenade (February 18, 2012)

Graduation Day (March 25, 2012)

Thank you, HOPE! ♥

Preparing for tonight.

So tonight will be the IHMA's Night... which they call IHMA Nite. To be quite honest I hate it when they change the spelling of a word, but whatever. So basically, we'll be dancing, and my sister will be taking a video of us. When that's done, I'll put it on here so each of you could see. :)

I'll be going to school soon, so we can get on the make up and finish the props. Believe me, it's the weirdest costume I've had ever since. Before IHMA's Night was performed by the great dancers and great musicians from our school, now everyone is in it. I was a grade six student when I first performed for IHMA's Night along with my classmates. I don't seem to have a picture of it that time, but I have pictures of the times when I was a freshman and a sophomore highschool student. Sadly, I don't have any pictures of the time I was a junior. :/

But I gotta go to school now. I'll be posting again later on and write about how it went. ;)

- Christin Madeleine

When memories keep you lost.

My mom decided to buy a shoe rack (more like a cabinet) yesterday, because our tiny cabinets (which we have individually) were becoming full with the shoes we owe and with the things we just stuff in there. Well, to be honest, I have some pairs of shoes I never use, and I don't know what to do with them, give them away I suppose? We'll see.

Anyway, we had this small table on our hallway full of old magazines, and stuffs that were forgotten. This day, my mom and maids had the chance to clean away this table to replace it with the shoe cabinet. And just now, my sister came in my room and brought with her something I haven't seen for awhile. It was a 'memory book' that I let my old classmates (from Norway) write in before I moved here, to the Philippines. I browsed through the pages, and I've realized, I have been keeping to myself way too much, been way too selfish about myself. My old classmates, they used to be my friends, now they're just a part of my memory, which just seems to annoy the hell out of me. I mean, I'm so afraid of myself when it comes to people I've used to know, because I become all sensitive and that. Bones are softened, and it's hard to stand on your own feet when that happens.

I'm not sure if you all know, but we were on a vacation in Norway during summer of 2010. I did, of course, see most of my old classmates then, but me? I didn't find the old me there. I didn't find the childhood me that didn't know what shyness was, what everything else that I am now was. But then again, I kept to myself every time I saw an old classmate of mine. I barely talked to them, barely let them talk to me, barely showed them any sign of, "Oh, she's okay to hang out with." To be quite honest, I regret it now. If I just could've opened myself to them, let them get the chance to see more of the Christin Madeleine that just stood before them, but basically, I didn't let them.

So, as I read through the messages of my old classmates, I finally understood what it was like back then. Most of their messages were really short, common poems that made much sense, such as, "Chew chewing gum to the dentist" or "Kind like the sun". Well, in English these words don't rhyme, but in Norwegian, they do.

Hah, times were colorful then. Well, I didn't want to show the whole page since their names are signed under their messages. :)

- Christin Madeleine

"NOOB!"

All I've been doing this summer is... IMVU, IMVU, and IMVU. Yes, I'm probably getting fat sitting on this goddamn chair staring at the beautiful screen. But oh well, since that is what I've been up to for the two past weeks, why can I not share about it? Could probably cause traffic there in IMVU. But seriously...

So, basically I started playing IMVU around 2006 or 2007 I guess, not so sure. But, back then, there was nothing named noob or loser or anything close to that. Everyone was friendly, everyone wore noob clothes, and there were almost no creators or developers to create clothes, accessories, eyes, eyebrows, heads, skin, shoes, hairstyles, rooms or avatars. It was just a very friendly world with no bitches, no meanies, no racists or anything. It was basically all just about meeting different people and getting to know them.

My sister and me.

A random person and me.

There weren't so many people, so I quit for awhile. When I came back, 2008, I made millions of accounts because I never got enough credits to buy clothes. At this time there were a fair amount of creators and developers, and I was sort of into gothic fashion. And these millions accounts are these accounts, but what I usually use now is my account KieranEmily. So, I came back and there was this "If you log in 4 times in a row, you'll get ____ credits!" So I was really up to that, came back every day and got more credits than the day before. So, I got more credits than usual, earned about 2000, and bought some clothes... until my Kieran Emily looked like this:

I like how she smiles here. c:

Then I quit again, and came back 2010. It was then I started to get so jealous because I saw girls with demon tails, spikes, lightning effects, black PVC dresses, combat/platform boots and wild hairstyles (these I call overloads). Also, I noticed how they started with the word "noob" and this brought me to confusion. There were rooms after rooms filled with bitches and whores and sluts and horny dudes which all caused traffic in IMVU. Not only that, nobody that were overloads seemed nice enough to say hi to me or any other noobs that were new to IMVU at that time.

An example of an overload.

I really wanted to cry. I was so jealous I started to use my XtnMdlin3 account because she had credits. And guess how I made her look? Pretty pathetic!

Then I started to use her as my main account ONLY because she had spikes (wtf?). Some screenshots...

See how they reacted to me wearing spikes. HAHA

Used to have a lot of fun with my cousin Laurie Ann and my sister Hannah.

Disco? xD

Look at that.

Then after that, I got tired of XtnMdlin3's spiky avatar and made a new avatar named XtnMdlne. I was so tired of wondering how people got their avatar taller and how they 'changed' their natural poses. I didn't know they were avatars. I know I'm confusing you. There are avatars and avatars, avatar (1) is the virtual you that appears in the 3d chats, avatar (2) is a product that can be bought in the shop that changes the way you stand/pose and sit, and also the height of your avatar. Although this was not known to me, I only bought a product with 125 poses.

My XtnMdlne account. c:

Still having fun with Laurie Ann and Hannah.

Me, Laurie Ann, our cousin Sweet, and Hannah.

Having the same 125 poses products. xD

HAHA c:

But then I got tired of that again, so I decided to focus on my KieranEmily account and have used her ever since. I started to earn credits through offerings and surveys, and other things I could do just to earn credits to buy whatever I wanted to buy. It was also then I was aware of avatars, so I bought my first avatar, the TF Cute Avatar 1 by TheAvatarFactory. I also had extra credits to "complete" my avatar, until my KieranEmily looked like this:

Well, I never got enough so this was never worn again after I started to again, earn credits through surveys to buy clothes. Then KieranEmily looked like this:

Never contented, I kept switching outfits again and again, until a friend of mine 11EmoGhost11 told me about codes for outfits. Basically, you just had to type in *tryOnOutfit and then the product numbers.
Ex. *tryOnOutfit 4349473 3554018 3536036 3663214 2376622 5093513 5019760 2901339 4170414 5738547 2219257 2220810 3705145 3705177 1809933 2966785 3166555 3341376 3342303 3377418 3700261 3843678 4281290 4725741 5188566 2134862 553082
That outfit looked like this (my avatar on the left):

I told my sister about this, and that's her code.

So yes, now I didn't have to worry about being jealous of other people's clothes, I didn't even have to worry about credits! Then the time came when I had to update IMVU. When I typed the code in the bar, it didn't work anymore, great. So then I was sad all again and wore my bitch outfits I was tired of. Then I did what I could to earn credits, got a little each time, and bought products. I don't even want to share every outfit I have had from that time, but rather the outfits I use the most these days, and here they are:

Nothing really impressive, but whatever.

Since the first few months of 2010, I've really been addicted to IMVU. Although when I was in a relationship with that knight of mine, I didn't log in so much, probably because I wanted to talk with him the most. And since that breakup I kept playing again. It's nothing like before. I usually came and visited a public chat room named Die's Dream, and I met hundreds of awesome people there. I have a picture of before.

First time in Die's Dream.

Met my closest buddies Lindsay (EyesOfEvil333) and Kevin (ShinKatsuka).

HARRY (BigHatGunslinger)!

Lindsay, Jesse (IIPredator), me and Kevin. I spent a lot of time with these three buddies.

Søren (Blackmagicmaster), Sha (chartzan) and me with silhouette skins. xD

Random, don't really know these people.

I don't know her name, Edward and me.

Me, Kami (SNAPSH0T), Sha (chartzan, I didn't recognize her) and other people I have no idea who they are.

Aiden (Nyangg), Anu (Anupu), me, Hannah (Echzee), Rony (rony098), Josefine (Josse907) and someone I don't know.

That was then. Things were fun THEN. Almost all of them are gone. Only Anupu, Josse907 are alive today, yet I don't talk to them any longer. Now it's just a bunch of unknown people.

I don't know who (DelBizzle), I don't know who(0hM33Gawd), I didn't get her name (DinoGoRawrness), Celina (DarkDelight613) and me.

Haha, yes, just a boring post. This is what I have been up to lately, so this is what I just blogged about. :/

Free today.

I can't understand what I feel. It's like I'm so empty inside that it changes so much of what I expected today to be. It's such a quiet morning, haven't seen anyone except my sister yet. I've been in my room, watched Noriko's Dinner Table, but ended up feeling completely torn apart. I've been avoiding music today. Since music is the root of my emotions, it's so easy for me to feel sad when listening to sad music. I mean, how much painful can it get if not listening to music still makes me want to cry? I feel so lonely... like I'm reaching out my arms and no one's coming to reach their arms back to me.

Of course, most of you know what this is about. I want to be with him, you know who I mean, but it's so hard to just wish for something that amazing to happen and know two things; it will either happen (but we'll have to wait for a long time) or not. And I don't think both of us are able to wait that long especially when we're that far from each other. Like he said, we are the ones who need the one we love by their sides, which makes things more difficult.

Empty gaze.

We don't have classes today, because the sophomores are having their NAT (National Achievement Test) exams, like we had when we were sophomores as well. But before this exam, all sophomores are needed to attend the reviews every Saturday (and I guess there are six Saturdays in total?). I didn't have so much against that when we  had NAT reviews because I didn't have so much to do during Saturdays, except for going to the city (which was too boring sometimes). But it was better that way, at least I could hang out with my friends. After the exam, I was in the top ten best in Science for the whole sophomore year level... or was it English? o.O

Kerrvy still had her long hair.

At the CR.

Julie and Shelamay.

My foot and Shelamay's.

SHELAMAAAY.

Martin, Shelamay and me during recess.

There was a lot of fun... too.

My feeeeeet.

Shelamaaaaay's.

During NAT reviews, we had a lot of time to explore our school and even play hide and seek!

So for the CEM test that we took recently (written about here), I got the 2nd highest rank (above average) in English within the classroom. Kurt, my classmate, got the highest rank (superior) and is in the top 10 list for the whole junior level in English, congratulations to you. The only thing I'm afraid of now is my math results because all the teachers are now saying that if you get a below average and down in math, you must take summer classes... in MATH! And who wants that? So, I'm still kind of scared. But, oh well...

Ever had NAT exams or CEM before?