By Friday.

Speaking of my last post, I can already say you know what this is all about. I'm way too busy right now to be able to keep up with my blog, so I'm dropping off everyday posts from this day to Friday. I have to do this because of our project in History, about the whole learning insights of economics which is one of the reasons why I'm getting depressed lately. HAHA, that sounds so lame, but whatever.

The picture says it all.

So I'm leaving my blog with the 365 days challenge, because I need to focus on doing the projects I need to do for the semi-finals examination this February 16 and 17. I need to get my clearance cleared, and it's NOT going to be easy at all. I know I can do this, because I want to graduate and I want to go to college and be geared for life! :))

Oh well, take care, and I wish good luck to myself.

Fuck this.

If there's one thing that's keeping me up this late (I would've been to bed if not for this), it's my project in history. We're supposed to write thirty pages about everything we've thought in economics. And can you guess what the worst part is? I'm still on the third fucking page! Damn this shit. Ugh, I apologize for inserting so many words you consider bad, but screw that. I know I'm not allowed to complain like this, but I guess our teacher went a little too far this time. Nah, I should get back to work before I start whining.

See all those tabs up there? That's the only reason why I can do this project.

Fuck this, I'm going to bed! :(

Thank you, pain.

DAMN! I don't know how it happened, but I lost all the pictures I took today. I was copying all the pictures, and when it was done, I renamed the folder name (like I ALWAYS do), and guess what? When I opened the folder, there was nothing inside. I immediately took a look back on my phone's memory, and there were absolutely no pictures. Shit, just shit. Guess what that means? Yup, no pictures for an everyday post today. Well, I am definitely not recommending you Nokia N8 because it always freezes, and it gets slow, and there's just a lot of things you have to complain about that goddamn phone, to be honest.

Well, even though this post will include no images to summarize my day, I still hope you have the interest to read, because I had an indescribable day. You all know about the J.S Promenade, right? Well, we still haven't gotten our partners yet, but last week, my mom gave me a thousand pesos to pay for the J.S prom (and I would return to her the change). The bad thing was that the little teachers were the ones who took over the teachers' position last week, so I didn't get the chance to pay. So I hid the one thousand bill under my I.D (at least it's a safe place since I'm wearing my I.D all the time in school). Over the weekend I didn't take it out so it was there all the time. Guess what? Early this morning, when I looked at the back of my I.D, the bill was gone. And fucking bullshit! I don't know how that happened, but I suppose someone stole it. I only have two ideas;

Saturday: I had some friends over, and of course, we are always in my room. Someone could have seen my I.D, and the freaking bill behind it. So, it could be, but I can't accuse anyone.

Sunday: We have visitors over yesterday because it was Sinulog here in our town. Now, three kids were running in and out my room like wild gorillas, and one of them could have spotted the bill. But I'm doubting on this because they're still kids and they were more interested in mascaras and lipsticks.

So, I carry no knowledge whatsoever. I am only guessing, and I won't point at someone without evidence. So because of this, I had a pretty rough morning. I burst out in tears when I told mom the thousand peso bill was gone. She went in and gave me a five hundred peso bill (the payment for the J.S prom is four hundred pesos). She got a little pissed, of course.

Anyway, lately I've been having the LSS of the song Thank You, Pain by The Agonist. I sent my sister a text message earlier and asked her if she could message me the lyrics of the song, and she did! (♥) Of course, I started singing the part where Alyssa does sing. I mean, if there's one thing I don't know, then it's to scream/growl.

"Through senses, what can we explain? Not joy, not guilt, not pain. Is love the same? This senseless argument in vain erodes my sense of shame. Who's to blame?


Thank you, pain. God bless suffering. Thank you, pain."

I have to say though, the title of the song somewhat matches well with my day. If there's one thing I don't do to someone I share mutual feelings with (when the guy's known to be a playboy), then it's to show emotion. Yeah, I'm still stuck with the "The First" situation, and he's a total ass. If there's one thing he doesn't have, then it's respect. He does know that I still have feelings for him, but there he is flirting heavily with girls right in front of me. Well, I don't know if it's him not caring about me or him trying to make me jealous. But fuck that, I'm done. Oh, yes, I do get ashamed for the fact that he does that in front of me, but I don't really get jealous. No, I get ashamed for the fact that he thinks I get jealous, so I always try to act like I see nothing and just smile (just to show that I don't want my feelings to be the reason of pain). If there's one thing I hate being, then it's being sad. I have other things to worry about than some dude trying to catch my attention like that. I love ignoring him, and how he just tries to be the one to get my attention in the end.

I am going to be completely honest, even though I hate admitting it, I did get hurt by all the things "The First" did, and how he just disrespects my total being but still tries to show so much affection. But doesn't getting hurt considered to be a beautiful thing? I mean not the part that people over exaggerate and start emoting and dramatizing and whining and all that, I mean the part you fall, get up, and become a stronger person. Well, all I can say is...

Thank you, pain. I've shed no tears, but I've had the fears.

Nooo, I would never take a picture of myself crying in real. HAHA :)) I just love how this all works together. If I don't show so much sad emotions in real/person, then why not in images?

Black and white.

After formation today, some of my friends came over. I mean, it was awesome, a lot of fun! First, Kerrvy, Julie, Charisse, and Trixia came over, and we did the usual things like chilling on the bed and logging on into facebook. Well, then Angelica came along but left some minutes after she came (she had other plans), then Shelamay and Ian came. We went to Plaza and ate mangoes and junk food while drinking mango shake. Damn, I sound just like a kid right now, but yeah, really. When we came back, I spotted someone I had been crushing on during sophomore year talking with some of my neighbors, I suppose, right outside a store. I was surprised, by the fact that he sat there (he went to our school during sophomore year only), and recognized us. Shelamay, as naughty as she is (but in a good way, of course), went in the gate screaming his last name. Then, pretty much the rest of them did, while I was bursting out in laughter. :))

Form!

Chilling with Julie, to be exact.

John Eric and some of the model section came with this big banner and asked us if we could take a picture with it. SURE THING. HAHA, damn. Btw, Shirley is someone also from the first section.

Getting ready to head out of school.

Walked past the church today, and someone was getting married. :3

Well, they actually decided to go to a prayer room right beside the church next to our school today. I respect them for believing, no doubts in that. :)

I wonder what they prayers were.

And of course, then they started talking, and we went back to school to wait for my parents to get us.

Meow. :3

Lalalaaaa. :))

Then we got home. BAHAHA

Trixia, Kerrvy, and me.

Julie decided to straighten my hair with a flat iron today. I'm not quite sure if I like my big, wavy hair better than this flat, straight hair.

Elegant much? :))

Going to plazaaa.

Eating mangoes! :3

Mango is definitely the Filipino's favorite fruit. :))

Oh yeaaah. :))

I don't know, but the three of them decided to wear black today. Julie wore gray, I wore white, and Ian wore stripes (black and white).

And Shelamay is the only one wearing a color. :3

JUNK!

Cute mango shakes. :))

Junk, but tastes pretty good. HAHA

Full? :))

Because of the heat, all of us had umbrellas. HAHA

And speaking of my gown for J.S Promenade, this is the color. :)

A black Teachers' Day.

I apologize for not getting the chance to blog yesterday, but I actually slept right after I came home. I changed my clothes and dived into my bed. I was pretty tired actually. I slept for at least twelve hours, but I felt that it wasn't enough when I woke up at seven earlier this morning. Ah, but I got some beauty sleep, as you can see. But anyway, let's talk about my day yesterday. It was our teachers' day, and we spent the whole morning having a program for the teachers, then on the afternoon we had classes on some subjects. Then when my parents picked me up, we immediately went to the city to pick up my sister. :3

Charisse and Julie. :3

Me and Kerrvyyy! ♥

Haha don't get the wrong idea, we're not lesbians, just best friends, y'know. :3

Trixia brought M&M's! :3

One pack of M&M's with peanuts and another pack of M&M's without peanuts. :))

Chilling before the program.

Black curtains! The president, Jevon, worked very hard for this program, and I'm so far very impressed. We sat on the newly built bleachers!

A pack of good looking folks, as you can see.

Escorts. HAHA

Teachers. :3

The young teachers having a dance number on stage. Was pretty entertaining though.

Me, Jackie, and Kerrvy. :3

Me and Kerrvy in the restroom.

We tried on the little vending machine that vends napkin pads and tissues.

Ate junk food. HAHA yum.

Chill.

Haha, I am an alive person, no doubts in that.

Just chilling, yes.

KURT! :))

This was on the way to the city. My parents had gone to G-Tabs and bought cheese crackers and cheese slices. Damn! When my dad told me to taste this and I did, I must say it's pretty good!

YUM, cheeeeese. ♥